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Carrying the weight of the world....
When I write this phrase down, I appreciate that it seems really quite narcissistic. However, I also realise that it stems from...

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Sep 10, 20241 min read


New ways to start the day
It's been a rough few weeks with morning palpitations, panic attacks and night terror. It's been exhausting operating and trying to...

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Sep 9, 20241 min read


Spiritual experiences in water
This year I've been thinking a lot about waves, brain waves and beach waves, this, alongside, with having friends who do cold-water...

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Sep 5, 20241 min read


Grieving for what's lost
This year I've been given the space and time to explore the way I work creatively and reflect upon the experiences that have helped to...

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Aug 30, 20242 min read


An insight into madness...
As part of my Develop Your Creative Practice funded year, I'm taking a deep dive into mental health, so was drawn to this book that looks...

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Aug 29, 20241 min read


Afraid to take up too much room...
I've realised that my default response to noisy people and certain situations, is to retreat. To move away. Become invisible and small. I...

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Aug 27, 20241 min read


Scream dreams
It was 14 years ago when I had my first night terror, it precipitated my later nervous breakdown, and since that time I've had these...

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Aug 13, 20241 min read


The best decision I've ever made
This is the first page of what would become, to date, an 83-book journey. It was a tentative step made in a blank A4, 92-page sketchbook...

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Aug 2, 20241 min read


The joy of journaling
I remember the night I started my first illustrated journal. My small son was three, and to pull back a couple of hours of child-free...

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Aug 1, 20242 min read


When every day is a grey day
Mornings always seem to be the worst for the grey fog. Wake up. Then as my brain lifts itself from sleep, it then seems to move into a...

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Aug 1, 20241 min read


A geyser of thoughts....
In general I'm finding that staying away from the news and social media is really helping with my anxiety. Instead of doom scrolling I'm...

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Apr 23, 20241 min read


Untying my knot
I was drawn to this quote as I often feel very knotted; knotted and tight forehead and knotted and taut nerves. At times these knots have...

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Mar 29, 20242 min read


What anxiety feels like
I was having an interesting chat yesterday with a chap about anxiety, he was interested in my artwork because he said he struggled to...

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Mar 21, 20241 min read


Life is always a battle
I seem to be doing quite well at the minute, and typically I'm feeling that I'm just lucky to be having a reprieve from the mental...

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Mar 19, 20241 min read


Junk food for the brain
I was chatting to someone about social media a few weeks ago, and she made the comparision with social media consumption being like...

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Mar 18, 20241 min read


What's in the air I breathe?
For some months now I've been really analysing the contents of the air I'm breathing, not the actual air, but metaphorically, but just as...

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Mar 7, 20242 min read


The storm has passed over...
This morning, I woke up. Grateful. Grateful that the thick, inpenetrable fog that's been swimming round my brain for the last few weeks...

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Mar 5, 20241 min read


Be the author of your own days
One thing that is helping with my anxiety recently is realising that I dont have to blindly follow the dictates of society, particularly...

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Mar 4, 20241 min read


An overly full brain....
I'm having one of those periods where the brain chatter doesn't stop and any positive thoughts struggle to get through. I think it's...

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Feb 23, 20241 min read


My brain feels poisoned
I grew up in a politically engaged household. I've spent my adult life working in journalism, and reading political works. I've engaged...

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Feb 23, 20241 min read
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