Carrying the weight of the world....

When I write this phrase down, I appreciate that it seems really quite narcissistic. However, I also realise that it stems from childhood. From a mother who seemed to throw the blame for everything in my direction, leaving me with a constant, nagging feeling of being overly responsible for all the bad things in life. On low days this manifests as a paralysing fear about the world, feeling so weighed down and powerless, but also guilty and responsible for modern slavery, for a system that dehumanises life and destroys nature. These thoughts rob me of joy and make everyday engagements difficult and gloom laden. When I'm feeling well I'm able to square these thoughts by remembering my community and how I endevour to do a small bit of good in my corner of the world. Visualising these thoughts has made me realise that I'm not Atlas and should only shoulder my equal share of the guilt of the world.

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