Brain collapses

In the run up to Christmas I'd had too many of these brain collapses. They aren't panic attacks, more anxiety attacks. But they are incredibly debilitating and can last for up to two days. Collapse is the best word for it as everything in my brain feels like it implodes - my sense of self and my worth in the world. I feel as though the world doesn't have room for me in it and I lose the ability to function and act rationally. With the extra pressure of Christmas in terms of money to spend and expectations and work to manage these collapses were increased in number. One thing I have learned in the last year though is that they don't last. They are a wave crashing. The energy does dissipate and the shore of my brain does go back to normal. Whatever that it is. There's comfort in that. It means that I have to just ride the storm and not react to anything in that 24-hour period. Just to respond. Once the wave has passed.